One to Grow On

Can you make a tree grow?

No, you can only watch its progress

Can you create fruit out of air

No, you can only harvest it

Can you ripen the apple?

No, it will let you know when it is ready

So why Eve do you choose without

thought

Or seek without

knowledge

Or fill a place with

what should not be?

Go back to your what you were made to love

He will never leave you nor forsake you

He is your Rock, Sword and Shield

Only He has your Adam

Trust without hesitation

Love without reservation

Wait with joy laced expectancy

Let who You believe be your guide

only the One who made the Two can

Make an us

-sj

Wisdom Pearl #150

Ignorance is Bliss

Because Knowledge is sorrowful

Let know one deceive you

-sj

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Thank God for giving you what you needed

Not What you wanted 

Not What you lusted after

Not What you craved

but What would make you stronger

What would make you grow 

What would drive you to Him

What would sustain you

What could love you

What could learn you

What could carry you

What would move you forward

What would make you refrain

What would make you better

What could and would stand beside you

For better or worse

For richer or poorer

In Sickness and in Health

Till death do you part

-Sj

Wisdom Pearl #112

Don't give someone keys to your Garden...when they have not tended their own.

-sj

Blind Worth

If he doesn't pray

Then how will he strengthen you?

If he doesn't know God-love

How will he love you?

If he doesn't embrace himself

How can he embrace you

If love is shared but not managed

How can you give him a title

He has not earned?

How can you give yourself

And he has not proven

His worth?

Words are sweet

But of little value

Let his actions show his intent

Pray Eve before you act

Seek Daughter before you commit

Watch Child before you decide

Your future will be better for it

Don't be blind to your Worth

-sj

My Quiet Strength

You never speak of it

But I know it is on your mind

So private are your thoughts

So guarded are your feelings

Then you squeeze my hand

To remind me you are alive

You sit in silence

Thinking,

Wondering what could have been

Never asking The Why

Always dealing with the Now

I am jealous of your confidence

God Speaks it is settled

You encourage me

I catch a gaze, not long

quick as a blink

but there was water in your eyes

Your strength has been shown

The yearning in your heart is the same as mine.

We continue, as we have

A little stronger

A little wiser

But we are still we

You remember and love

As only a Father can

I am in love with you more and more for it


-sj

Grief, Sorrow, Joy and Hope

What a difference a day makes...

Not long ago

I could not see any weight in my life

My heart had slipped thru my grasp

So helpless was I

As his life passed through my hands

I wanted the earth to open and cover me

I didn't want to breath

I was broken

Angry

Afraid

More than a dozen times I have remembered him

Annually, monthly, weekly

But it gets better

The pain of loss isn't as sharp as it was

But I fear won't dull any more past this point

I have grasped my strength

I have remembered my joy

I live, so he lives

I love because it is a privilege to do so

I will not forget because I am his Mother

Until we meet forever,

-sj
In Remembrance of Elan Micheal Howard
Buried on 9/11