A Day In My Life

Sometimes the very thing that you are trying so hard to get away from...is the very thing you need the most. Just saying For example I couldn't wait to get away from my parents and family and have a life of my own. Well now I don't have a life without my parents and family. I called my mom yesterday and told her I needed my favorite chair in her living room and a nice bowl of her made from scratch soup. It comforts my soul. Now apply where necessary and where not necessary don't make excuses to try and make a square peg fit in a space where a triangle was made to be. Wisdom people..ask for it and it will be given to you liberally! -Souljourner

Son of joy Strength is in your arms Your hands are filled With the promises of the earth Be faithful in your work Adam You bring honor to your family You delight yourself in precepts that bring you life He will reward you because diligent is your search for Him We need you You are precious to Him who created you In His image, you stand In His breath, you live Trust Him to supply all of your needs He has a helpmate for you Wait for her Your faithfulness will be rewarded Don't be afraid to trust He knows your name -Souljourner

you say you love me but your fruit tells on you you say you believe but your life mirrors abomination and  desolation you say you know Me but you don't defend the innocent you don't correct the unjust you don't stand when it is for Me You say choice and sleep undisturbed whose are you again? Mine? are you sure My sheep know Me yet you say you hear but refuse to listen Time is coming Will you still serve you? -souljourner

You are so beautiful You don't have to prove what you are you just need to be taught to embrace it You are worth waiting for Make him work for your hand The prize that is you Then you can give yourself away unselfishly with no guilt no commendation and no regrets its rewarding to follow the straight and narrow you bring grace to your husband and honor to your father daughter of Zion -souljourner

Greetings Family! I hope all is well in your corner of the world. Forgive me if I have already shared this story with you.  Something's are worth repeating. With that said here are some thoughts that needed to be shared with you. I hope it blesses you as much as it blessed me to write it. Regards, -Souljourner I can't remember exactly what day it was but that is not an important detail; I do remember, however, that we were on the tail end of a very trying time with Nathan's dialysis treatment. It was over a series of days where Nathan was not receiving adequate treatment due to a faulty catheter. As a result his blood pressure numbers were ridiculous. He didn't feel good and nothing we were trying was working. It was painfully obvious that this little soldier had had enough. With tears in his eyes he looked at me and his sister...and he said "nothing is work!" "Nothing is work, Mom".  I was terrified, I couldn't breathe. My blood was ...

Small should stay small never should it be made into something tall because a shadow then does it project causing you to forget that small can be nothing but small -Souljourner

Life is to be celebrated Choices are to be weighed Perspective, although, respected does not produce agreement Does that make me mean? Non-tolerant Or are you exactly what you accuse me to be? My standards are established by the Most High In your life He does not exist That is your choice But it doesn't affect the fact that He does Allow me to stand as I stand Because I will, regardless of permission I, in turn, will continue to respect your freedom to choose your life is in your hands Don't say you were not cautioned Every flip has a side For good or bad So you do what you do And I will be who I am There is no hate Just truth -Souljourner

It is so funny how the Lord can use everyday moments to speak with us. It is so beautiful when I can hear Him with clarity...meaning my spirit is quiet enough to hear Him. It is empowering,, re-assuring and awe inspiring. It sticks with you for the rest of your days. It serves as a point of reference to help steady your course not to mention an encouragement to you when your way gets a little rough and you wonder if you are going the right way. At least it does for me. For example I remember when I was heavy with our 3rd child; heavy meaning miserable, large, huge and uncomfortable. This pregnancy was my most difficult. I had high blood pressure, chronic nose bleeds, heartburn and a terrible craving for filet  o' fish. Honestly I would have my husband go to a 24 hour McDonald's and grab 2 of those tasty sandwiches complete with tarter on the side pickles and the onions they place on the 1/4 burgers. I would crush, as my 20 year - old says, that and fruit. So wonder I had pres...

We used to fuss quarrel and fight We never really appreciated each other There was never a reason too. Until now. Brother our days have grown longer with the responsibilities of family careers and other distractions But every now and again we get to hang out even if it is just 3 minutes to ourselves and it is so very nice! I miss your snappy humor and witty comebacks I miss your perspective which has grown ever wiser with time and travel I miss the girls, oh how they used to oogle you. How proud I was to say that you were my big bro. I still am. I love you and the man that you have become I look forward to your counsel and I enjoy sharing the mis-adventures of our kids. It's nice to hear your laugh, so boisterous so full of life. It's comforting to see how observant you are over the needs of your wife and kids You are everything I thought you could be and more. Consider these accolades your beautifully won flowers! -Souljourner

Do you ever wonder what the air will be like in heaven? I do. I can't picture it but I know it will be glorious like Christmas morning to my 6 year old self. As we continue on this journey with Nate I find myself grasping unto to any hope I can find. Honestly some days the journey wears on me..I just hate the words autism and disease. I am like really, if I got to hear those terms one more time I promise that I will scream. Funny thing of how reflection will help put things into perspective..about the time that I was just 'over' the whole renal failure, dialysis treatments  blah blah blah. The doctor entered our treatment room and started telling her colleagues all about the last several months of Nate's history. Just listening to her made me go Thank You Jesus! I hadn't forgotten it just that sometimes when you are in the fight you forget that you are on the winning side. I can't imagine being a soldier in the middle of a war. The constant sound of gun fire...

sometimes I feel like a volcano ready to erupt my emotions are all over the place hot, smokey threatening to strangle me and I can't get a hand on my reality I get angry and take my frustrations out on anything or anyone close to me I mourn the life I thought I would have I mourn the dreams lost then i remember to breathe it resets me the air crushing thru my nostrils the expansion of my lungs allow me to understand that my job is simple just  believe and trust that He has my best interest in line with His will Again I draw a deep breath my brain tingles with excitement like the shock of stepping into a cold winter morning A reminder that I am alive That I am set aside for a special purpose I am equipped with everything I need to complete the job even if I am not sure of what exactly it is breathing re-establishes the fact that I am fearfully and wonderfully made there are no accidents only divine appointments I am encouraged I feel my strength re...

I live I love I breathe I am -Souljourner

Can I be honest? Can I risk your opinion of me changing? Can I be allowed to reveal my frailness my doubts and insecurities Can I be truthful Can I release? There is so much in my tears they are my courage they carry my strength they help me remember that i  have limitations I am not GOD and it is okay I don't have to have the answers I don't have to like my circumstances I get angry i pray I cry I repeat Allow me to be honest Allow me to be human I can be nothing else -souljourner

I would rather you keep it real Tell me how you feel and let your actions Support your words I would rather you be truthful in your hurt Than have your mouth part ways Don't tell me you love me But do everything against Me Don't despise Me when I correct you Don't twist my judgement with your bias A lie is never the truth No matter how much it is accepted Trust I am going to keep it real with you -Souljourner

Just an observation Just a thought I noticed your light Shines pink sometimes blue I thought who you served was light? Pure, radiant, power undiminished His light never changes The color never fades Just a thought Just an observation You might want to choose this day Who you love Because who you love Will Be who you serve Souljourner

Since when is God's commands a matter of public opinion? Since when did we allow godless people rule over our society? The nation that GOD created? When did we say wrong is right and right is wrong? Why do we celebrate those who are in open rebellion to GOD's policies and doctrine. Has anyone told the masses that the phrase "Oh My G" is disrespectful? I am sure one of the commandments state that we are not to say His name in vain. Has anyone taught their sphere of influence that the rainbow is a sign of GOD's covenant made with Noah? Not Gay Pride? I find it disturbing, do you? We need to teach the non-believers, luke-warm followers and those who think they can have the best of both worlds,  that there are consequences to every choice; and whether they choose to believe the Word of GOD or not it does not diminish it's truth or power. Why should we? Not because we don't love them but quite the contrary. They need to know that one day their soul will be ...