A Day In My Life

My fear caught me off guard today Tears kept leaking from my hiding place I am so full I don't know how to release My days are off I feel like I am lost There are no breaks No one to shelter me Who can I call? Who understands me? Who can encourage the encourager? Mom what is for breakfast Mom what is for lunch Mom I need, can I have It never ends Their life shouldn't be interrupted Because their mom is having a moment... Cereal for dinner has never hurt anyone I resolve to find the hidden pleasures in my day I will not be defeated I am a Champion! -sj

I fought and pushed You gently guided I was angry You hugged me with a breeze I was confused Storms inside me were moving At the speed of life You spoke My waters were calmed I am still unsure But I know You I can trust You are my help My soul’s Redeemer Still I struggle with myself I am only living clay Help me when the fragility of my nature Covers me, Entangles me, Stifles me, Overtakes me The shadow of your Majesty Reminds me of how Tiny I am A microcosm of thought and emotions But still You watch over me I don’t understand Your ways You assure me that I don’t have too The lake glistens with life The air is sweetly perfumed The sky is adorned beautifully I am reminded that You are with me My courage has returned Thank you for seeing past my anger I wear your strength as a shield My challenges will not overtake me -sj

I knew when my eyes  finally focused  and acknowledged the new day I wasn't ready I knew when I heard the familiar sounds of the morning I wasn't ready I knew when I wished someone else could fry the bacon Or butter the toast I wasn't ready But that no longer mattered Like a soldier called into battle Ready wasn't an option It's a requirement -sj

I didn't want today No particular reason I just wanted to stay in my dreamscape Sleep is such a sweet release Nothing makes sense But it doesn't have too I don't struggle to understand What's happening around me It's curious and even entertaining My mind is free I love it, I crave it It is my addiction Now you understand why the dawn Was greeted with mourning The chores of the day screaming at me Invading my space My palace of peace Where is my comfort? Who will aide me? Can someone else fix breakfast Can someone else get me coffee 1 sugar, 2 creams please -sj

My Word is Life. It is Truth. It is Prophetic...so I suggest you read the last pages of that book you don't want believe -GOD

I bet you didn't know That I have been to the edge and back I have stared at the abyss and it has talked Smack I bet you didn't know that my love is fierce I will kill a brick over mine I have cried many tears I bet you didn't know that I believe mountains can be moved The blind can see And the lame walk I bet you didn't know that if my mountain did not move Praise will still be in my spark If the darkness still stays If the rain never slows If grief fills some of my days I still remain Maybe a little shaken But never broken I am one who is victorious Do you know who gave His life in service? I don't know if you do know Come to think of it...I don't know you that well either Let's change that because you are my neighbor I am willing If you are Even if you aren't The love in me is -sj

Today I had the privilege of helping a friend out. Her Great-Aunt had passed and she wanted to be at the funeral services. So I packed up my kids, rushed out the house this morning met her and drove to where she could pay her final respects. We talked about a few things, we always enjoy each others company. Eventually we arrived in Chester, (about 25 minute drive from Richmond), found the church where services were being held and dropped our friend off. The boys and I headed to a local restaurant to grab some lunch. I still have not adjusted to the overgrowing hunger associated with adolescent boys. Anyway, as we sat in the restaurant and I watched the boys eat I couldn't help but notice how the people came in, ordered their lunch and searched for a place to eat. Nothing out of the ordinary. Nothing wrong or offensive about it at all. But what did strike me as interesting  as we sat in the sun-room area, (myself the boys and one other young man at a separate table), was how peopl...