So I like black,
You like blue
I adore purple
But you loathe it
Red I embrace
You seek to destroy it
Should I let go what I know
To make you feel justified
Lure you into deceptive agreement
No I shouldn't
I won't
But I will love you as my parameters permit
and agree to disagree about everything else
Souljourner
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Proud
Marriage is a Holy Covenant between One man and One woman
GOD honors what He has defined
Marriage is beautiful
Honorable
Strong
and our society's foundation
It is the life blood of a healthy structure
Proudly I say
I LOVE THE INSTITUITION OF MARRIAGE AS GOD DEFINED IT
I AM A WOMAN WHO LOVES HER HUSBAND
I LOVE BEING A MOTHER
I AM NOT ASHAMED OF THE GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST
Souljourner
STORMS
Grey,
blue,
black
fierce
determined
commanding
I tremble
I can hear my heart
I have lost my voice
I can't breathe
Storm, leave me
Leave me
the choice is mine
I want my power
It is not yours to give back
because it wasn't yours to take away
I found it
you can no longer hold me
I am free
I will stand
Souljourner
blue,
black
fierce
determined
commanding
I tremble
I can hear my heart
I have lost my voice
I can't breathe
Storm, leave me
Leave me
the choice is mine
I want my power
It is not yours to give back
because it wasn't yours to take away
I found it
you can no longer hold me
I am free
I will stand
Souljourner
WHO?
I cry
Who hears me
I weep
Who comforts me
I fear
Who assures me
My strength wanes
Who restores me
I feel lost
Who guides me
I am ready to surrender
Who rallies me
I am quiet
Who hears me
Souljourner
Who hears me
I weep
Who comforts me
I fear
Who assures me
My strength wanes
Who restores me
I feel lost
Who guides me
I am ready to surrender
Who rallies me
I am quiet
Who hears me
Souljourner
Thoughts
Every time they prick your body
I cringe
When I look at your wounds
I want to cry
Every time they want to see
how you are healing
I want to jump to your defense
I want to protect
I want to help
I want to take your pain
I want to make it better
I have to resist becoming bitter
I have to accept Thy Will Be Done
But I hurt just like you do
I am challenged like you are
I wait for deliverance
for you, for me
Control is not mine
Neither is the outcome
Certainly not the glory
Trust is a hard thing
but is necessary
Emmanuel Help Me
Jehovah Jireh I call out to You
Only you
You are my deliverer
You are my shield
You are my promise
Souljourner
I cringe
When I look at your wounds
I want to cry
Every time they want to see
how you are healing
I want to jump to your defense
I want to protect
I want to help
I want to take your pain
I want to make it better
I have to resist becoming bitter
I have to accept Thy Will Be Done
But I hurt just like you do
I am challenged like you are
I wait for deliverance
for you, for me
Control is not mine
Neither is the outcome
Certainly not the glory
Trust is a hard thing
but is necessary
Emmanuel Help Me
Jehovah Jireh I call out to You
Only you
You are my deliverer
You are my shield
You are my promise
Souljourner
Joyuex Anniversaire!
Or For Non-French Speakers: Happy Birthday!
May 31, 2014 Marked my 44th birthday. It was great...filled with birthday calls, facebook birthday wishes, some cards and a few presents. We spent the day with extended family and then snuck out for an 8pm movie.
As with any birthday I like to take a look at what I have accomplished in the previous year. Honestly I didn't remember much because the last 2 months have been moving at the speed of life; but in this moment that I have to catch my breath sort of speak, I needed to reflect. To draw on past victories, review setbacks and purpose to do better every day.
I remember when I was so excited as a child to have a birthday party. My mom would spare no expense and would have the place decorated beautifully with colorful streamers, balloons, party plates and cups. The table would be filled with snacks, drinks, presents and hot dogs. My friends and I played games all in the back yard. The whole family would check in throughout the day. Aunts, uncles cousins and friends...it was simple, it was warm, It was awesome.
I remember when I was 16 and all I wanted to do was spend time with my friends. It was harder for me to have a relationship with my parents, especially my mom. She would pull and I would push or vice versa. I didn't enjoy my parents and they probably didn't enjoy me much at the time either. I always wanted more, felt like I should be doing more. Like I should be hanging around the cool kids and doing cool stuff. We had moved by then and family didn't travel that far just for a birthday, Christmas yes. Birthday no. So I was missing a lot...I just didn't know it yet.
Then the big 21! Oh snap I am legal woohooo..I don't even remember the stupid stuff my friends and I did. Probably best that I didn't, Thank GOD for His grace! This time I approached my parents with a sense of entitlement. I was a brat. Took my gift said thankyou and headed out the door to what I thought was fun. Funny how walking with The Lord changes your definition of fun.
Then the big 30, the big 40 and now. What I can reflect most on is how I have changed, my attitude has soften and my heart is thankful!
A peaceful mind enjoys the simple things...like a hug from a little one
or a smile from the one you love
A thankful heart enjoys a soft breeze on the cheek, its like a kiss from GOD
A wise eye looks all around and marvels at the Lord's majesty; and is thankful and humbled at the same time.
Happy Birthday to me!
Thankyou Jesus for your peace, love and covering
May 31, 2014 Marked my 44th birthday. It was great...filled with birthday calls, facebook birthday wishes, some cards and a few presents. We spent the day with extended family and then snuck out for an 8pm movie.
As with any birthday I like to take a look at what I have accomplished in the previous year. Honestly I didn't remember much because the last 2 months have been moving at the speed of life; but in this moment that I have to catch my breath sort of speak, I needed to reflect. To draw on past victories, review setbacks and purpose to do better every day.
I remember when I was so excited as a child to have a birthday party. My mom would spare no expense and would have the place decorated beautifully with colorful streamers, balloons, party plates and cups. The table would be filled with snacks, drinks, presents and hot dogs. My friends and I played games all in the back yard. The whole family would check in throughout the day. Aunts, uncles cousins and friends...it was simple, it was warm, It was awesome.
I remember when I was 16 and all I wanted to do was spend time with my friends. It was harder for me to have a relationship with my parents, especially my mom. She would pull and I would push or vice versa. I didn't enjoy my parents and they probably didn't enjoy me much at the time either. I always wanted more, felt like I should be doing more. Like I should be hanging around the cool kids and doing cool stuff. We had moved by then and family didn't travel that far just for a birthday, Christmas yes. Birthday no. So I was missing a lot...I just didn't know it yet.
Then the big 21! Oh snap I am legal woohooo..I don't even remember the stupid stuff my friends and I did. Probably best that I didn't, Thank GOD for His grace! This time I approached my parents with a sense of entitlement. I was a brat. Took my gift said thankyou and headed out the door to what I thought was fun. Funny how walking with The Lord changes your definition of fun.
Then the big 30, the big 40 and now. What I can reflect most on is how I have changed, my attitude has soften and my heart is thankful!
A peaceful mind enjoys the simple things...like a hug from a little one
or a smile from the one you love
A thankful heart enjoys a soft breeze on the cheek, its like a kiss from GOD
A wise eye looks all around and marvels at the Lord's majesty; and is thankful and humbled at the same time.
Happy Birthday to me!
Thankyou Jesus for your peace, love and covering
LOGISTICS...
It is Wednesday of week 10 in our dialysis regimen. So far Nathan has developed an allergy to the anti-clot medicine and is wreaking havoc on his nurse, doctor and mother's nerves. I am struggling big time today. My anxiety is threatening to take me over..I want to cry, yell and scream.
This would be the day that I wished I could fly; just so I could see the clouds, sun, the heavens. To feel the wind on my face..it's like a kiss from GOD. It grounds me! It reminds me that I am not alone. It gives me courage. All in just a few moments.
My apologies but I never shared what was bothering me. LIFE! This is just so overwhelming. I fear what I don't understand. I don't know the physiology of the my son or the complexity involved in treating him. I don't want to know why his treatment isn't working I want to know what we can do to fix it. And the treatment be successful.
He needs a transplant, his mother needs assurance. He needs love, understanding and the best care. His mother needs to be covered in the Wings of the Lord. Only GOD can relieve my anxieties, Only GOD can know my thoughts, my fears and my deepest thoughts. The ones that I shutter to even admit that I even thought that.
Is it a lack of faith to admit to GOD what He already knows. NO it isn't ..as I learned from a trusted Pastor's teachings..doubt says: 'I don't understand, I am afraid but trust YOU.' I needed to know this because amidst the machines beeping, the non-effective treatment plans, my tears..That GOD is in control of my day. That He has His hands on this family! That HE is bringing us into a greater awareness of Him. That though I fear, I still trust; because He is GOD and I believe every letter of His Word!
Logistics says we need to get to this expected end but don't know how it will happen. Faith says that GOD is a GOD of provision. He looks ahead and knows what I need and prepares me to receive it . Faith gives me the courage in the physical to face obstacles knowing that I already have the victory.
He sees me.
Genesis 16:13
Souljourner
This would be the day that I wished I could fly; just so I could see the clouds, sun, the heavens. To feel the wind on my face..it's like a kiss from GOD. It grounds me! It reminds me that I am not alone. It gives me courage. All in just a few moments.
My apologies but I never shared what was bothering me. LIFE! This is just so overwhelming. I fear what I don't understand. I don't know the physiology of the my son or the complexity involved in treating him. I don't want to know why his treatment isn't working I want to know what we can do to fix it. And the treatment be successful.
He needs a transplant, his mother needs assurance. He needs love, understanding and the best care. His mother needs to be covered in the Wings of the Lord. Only GOD can relieve my anxieties, Only GOD can know my thoughts, my fears and my deepest thoughts. The ones that I shutter to even admit that I even thought that.
Is it a lack of faith to admit to GOD what He already knows. NO it isn't ..as I learned from a trusted Pastor's teachings..doubt says: 'I don't understand, I am afraid but trust YOU.' I needed to know this because amidst the machines beeping, the non-effective treatment plans, my tears..That GOD is in control of my day. That He has His hands on this family! That HE is bringing us into a greater awareness of Him. That though I fear, I still trust; because He is GOD and I believe every letter of His Word!
Logistics says we need to get to this expected end but don't know how it will happen. Faith says that GOD is a GOD of provision. He looks ahead and knows what I need and prepares me to receive it . Faith gives me the courage in the physical to face obstacles knowing that I already have the victory.
He sees me.
Genesis 16:13
Souljourner
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